I know I dont update much anymore.
It's weird.
Ill come on msn, talk to only the most emo.
check my email, write back to those who i miss.
check nex, comment on a certain persons page.
check livejournal, curse those who dont update.
but then never update myself.
But I dont talk to any of you very much, So this is probably the best way to let you all know whats happening at once.

Home Tournament this weekend. First game 2:30 - Parkland. Pacers vs Whitecourt.
We need to beat them.
They're the ones that beat us in the grand final by 3.
and I hate whitecourt.
The Sabers played them in hockey.
Most. intense. game. ever.
Edson and Whitecourt are like unwritten enemies.
sucks for us we lost.
But I'm not here to make friends, so I wont sugar coat anything. Edson does blow, so its no wonder.

Speaking of the game...
I took my little brother to it. I knew he'd enjoy it because he loves hockey.
So we watch the game and he really enjoys himself (little pilsberry doughboy ate like 3 burgers [reminds me of a little Gee])
And after the game we're sitting there talking to Torrin.
Torrin - "So Ben, what didja think of my performence?"
Ben - "yeah not bad"
Torrin - "haha thanks"
Ben - "you didnt play very much."
Torrin - "haha... yeah"
Ben - "... Jessica says its because your not very good."
Torrin - *silence*
Me - "Aaaalright Ben, time to go."

Never laughed so hard.
Kids say the darndest things my ass.
I did actually say that though, i just didnt want to keep telling him when Torrin was on the ice so i just said that he was benched. Well, shot myself right in the foot there didnt I.

Exams done - Bio (overall 69% baby [cant get any better [well unless i got like a 70 or something i guess, technically]])
Social - not a hard test. not an easy one. i just didnt care. and i didnt know there was a written part until like 10 minutes to go. i sat there and wondered for the longest time why i was done so early...

Exams to go - ... Math ...
Well I figured it out, and to fail the course id need to get like 28% on my test. and i think even if i didnt study thats impossible. and im studying all day tomorrow. so i Thiiiink I should be good to go. But just in case, everyone should pray for me.

Next semester subjects - English 20 - fuckin rights baby
Chem 20 - fuckin shoot my now baby
Bio 30 - fuckin cheating my way through this baby
Calm - sex ed is my bitch... baby.

March 10 - basketball ends
March 31st - 17 biznatch. this is where it all begins. I dont know why. or how. or what is begginning. but... thats just... where it uh, begins.
TOC - Yeah dont remember the date. but its sometime after that.

I just want to sit and stare at the screen forever.
I feel like I need a hug.
I want to be myself so much it hurts.
And I cant remember how anymore.
I just feel awkward and out of place.
I think I used to know myself.
And I cant pinpoint the exact moment when it was gone,
But I have a good idea.

... I need out of Edson ...
I need you.

Sophmore Slump or Comeback of the Year?
I fall into both catagories.
what are you?